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I LOST ANOTHER POUND!!! WHOOOO HOOOOO!!!!!

Ok, now that I stepped off Cloud 9, HI EVERYONE!!!!

The kids are finally well! So far I’ve managed to stay well myself, awesome!! Things have been going great and the exercise is working out well. I’ve had to change my routine up a bit but I still to the same exercises, just at a different time of day!!

“I used to say, ‘I sure hope things will change.’ Then I learned that the only way things are going to change for me is when I change.” — Jim Rohn

Just a short note today!!

Love and blessings to all of you,

Elizabeth

Hello my Lovely Buddies!!

Sorry I haven’t been on in a while. All three of my kids had a stomach bug this past week. I thought it was from all the candy at Halloween, but then my four year old started throwing up and having diarrhea as well. He didn’t go out with the other two and ate little candy. He only got some from Preschool and what they didn’t want.

I haven’t been exercising, but with the smell and constant cleaning up after someone, I don’t want to eat. My kids health is more important than anything. The school was irritating me asking to speak to my doctor because of the H1N1 stupidity. No one in our elementary school has or had it and according to my doctor, it’s no worse than the flu. I know someone will disagree with me, but I believe it is more hype than fact. My doctor said that some of the shots for the H1N1 have not been thoroughly tested and she refuses to give them to her patients. I think that is a good stance for her to take. Anyway, enough of my soapbox.

The kids are doing fine now and eating more solid foods. My daughter (10) wants to go back to school badly. Her friends call and tell her about the goings on in the class. It puts a smile on my face to see her rant and rave with them like their a group of teenage girls. I can only imagine what it will be like when she is one!! LOL!!! 

My oldest (14) sits on our front porch with his friends and they do the same thing except it’s about girls and the goings on around the neighborhood since he is homeschooled. They seem to think all four of them own this town! Sometimes they tell him about their day at school and he he gets a good laugh. I’m hoping he will go to high school since the curriculum is going to get harder and I think he needs the help they can provide. Not that there aren’t plenty of good online courses, but he wants to go into drama and that’s a bit tough to teach online. I pulled him out in fourth grade so he knows what school is like.

I’ll stop babbling now. It’s just nice to have a place to go and vent, good or bad. I haven’t weighed in a while since it’s that time of the month. That really was so wonderful of it to start with my kids being sick. I don’t know about you, but I simply love the cramps!! LOL!! THEY SUCK!!

I need to get the kids ready for church. I usually drop them off about 9:30 so they can attend Sunday school and pick them up at noon after the Service. No, my husband and I do not attend church, but we don’t discourage our children from it. They made the decision to go and we’re OK with it. They take their little brother now and he like the Sunday school and nursery. We were very devout Catholics up until a few years ago. I don’t discuss it any more and I’m at ease with my decision. My husband and I follow a more nature based belief system and our kids are OK with it. They are aware of we do and we are aware of what they do. We just chose different paths.

I found this quote and since it’s Sunday and football season it seems to fit, plus it’s funny:

‘When somebody tells you nothing is impossible, ask him to dribble a football.’ - Anonymous
I have to admit when I was a kid I tried - didn’t work!!

Hugs and love to all my buddies!! Have a great and wonderful day!!

My ankle is much better today. I knew resting it would be much better than pushing it.

I just did my exercise ball and some Pilates. As I was doing the workout, I realized how unfit I am and it makes me feel so stupid for letting myself turn into this person. Yes, I do have a long list of exercises, but it seems I can barely do any of them and that irritates me to no end!! I have to modify every exercise I do! I guess I’m just going through a phase right now. I think it may be PMS. I got on the scale yesterday for my weekly weigh and it was two pounds exactly to the ounce. Also I looked at my calendar and it should be any day now!! I never realized what was happening to me until this past year. I now realize that’s what made college so hard in the early 90’s. I could never make it because I would get so depressed and drop classes or the semester, only to feel better a few days after I started. But by then the damage was done. I started working and hated it because the job sucked!! Two years later I met the most wonderful man in the world when I decided to give school one more chance. I started the Art Institute of Houston (I miss my hometown) on August of ‘92. We met in August of ‘93 and were married in April of ‘94 and going strong today!! Actually, I think it’s better now!!

Anyway, I just feel so blah today and trying to fight the feeling to eat everything in sight is HARD!! At least I have somewhere to put my feelings now and not have them bottled up inside. Maybe that’s why I had such a hard time before. Hubby will sit on the couch and listen to all my ranting and raving, sometimes crying. He never makes excuses to do something else. He’s a gem!!

Thank goodness I don’t have any candy or soda in the house. I might eat them all. Soda was my biggest weakness. I hardly ate much, but I drank my calories. I sometimes drank two 2-liter bottles a day of Dr. Pepper. It was easier to drink than to prepare food. But it was even easier to go through the drive-thru. Burger King was my weakness and sometimes I would order two “King-Sized” meals and eat them in my car so no one could see me. I haven’t had a soda in two months and the cravings were hard in the beginning and today they are BAD!! Oh, did I mention the headache that lasted for almost a week?!?!?! That sucked!! Another problem is my husband co-owns a Coney Island with his buddy and that is hard when I surprise him sometimes during the day.

Well it seemed I had a little rant and rave session and now it’s over. I feel bit better and should make it through the day. Please send me good vibes today so I don’t break down. I know I said I never deny myself, but an alcoholic can’t have one drink and be OK. That’s how I am with soda, It’s all or nothing and I prefer nothing.

Hugs to all of you!!

Yesterday evening, I was wearing heels and two of my three cats decided it was time to play chase!! Needless to say one of them ran into my right ankle  and it twisted. Thank goodness I didn’t fall, but fell against my bed. So today I’m on the couch with a swollen ankle and a bag of ice watching my Star Trek: Enterprise DVDs. My son is happy because I gave him the day off from home schooling, but he now has to have a half day Saturday with dad or an extra hour each day next week. He chose next week.

Yesterday I bought a Jillian Michaels DVD. It has alot of kickboxing on it. I was starting to get a bit bored with my routine since I’ve been doing the same thing for seven weeks. It was quite a workout but I loved it!!

Seems lately I’m wanting to eat more food. I know it’s because I’m working hard and my body needs the energy food provides. I’m still getting over the fact that eating more food when it’s healthy is OK. Example today: I had a veggie burger on Ezekiel bread, mustard, tomatoes, sprouts, pickles on the side with orange slices and 2 bottles of water. To me it seemed I was pigging out, but it’s good food and I was honestly hungry. This is where relearning to eat has been the biggest challenge. On a “diet,” I was taught you have to starve. My doctor told me I needed to increase my food intake in order to lose weight. This sounded ridiculous at first, but not anymore! Alright I’ve babbled enough now. Onto some awesome news!!

I lost another pound!! It’s so nice to see 240something instead of 250something.

Well I have some AWESOME news!! I pulled out some clothes that didn’t fit anymore to give to charity. I was curious since I’ve dropped some pounds (10 total) and decided to try them on for no reason and THEY FIT!!!! I tried a pair of jeans that I couldn’t button or zip anymore and I was able to do both!! Now they weren’t comfortable to wear for any length of time, but they will be before to long!! I decided to take my measurements early. I try to measure on the first on each month, but it’s close enough!! Here goes:

Waist - 1/2″!!!!!!!!!

Bust - 1/2″!!!!!!!!!!!

Waist - 3/4″!!!!!!!!!

I just stood there and literally cried for several minutes. There were no words for the way I felt!!

So now I’m going to exercise and later this afternoon I’ll treat myself to ONE Godiva Truffle from the mall today. It’s nice to be able to walk in there and actually buy one, not a dozen or more. I don’t deprive myself, that’s where I failed so many times before. I’ve had to relearn to eat.

Maybe soon I’ll be able to post a picture of myself. I’ve always been terrified of the camera and made sure I was the one taking the picture! You have to admit the meerkat is cute though!!

Hugs to all,

Elizabeth

Today I had a hard time waking up and consequently a hard time convincing myself that exercise is a good idea. I know I’m just back from being sick, but I need to push myself to get on the treadmill or my exercise ball. I’ve been known to sabotage myself from time to time and I feel this is one of those days. That is why I am writing here so I can make myself see what I am doing. This has really helped in the last few minutes. Going to go workout now. Thanks journal for listening and getting me motivated!! To Do Today:

Treadmill - 30 minutes at 2.3 mph (slow for some, but when you are short [5′2″] that’s fast!!

Exercise Ball - 10 sets of 20

Pilates - try for 20 of the 50 minute workout

Bowflex - legs and abs only

That is enough I think. !!!

Had my usual Thursday weigh-in and I lost a pound!! I wanted to be to my goal of 245 by Nov. 1, but getting sick put a kink in that, but I’m ok with that since I am so close. I know I will be alot closer by then as well.

Yesterday I actually got out and walked down the River Trail near our house. I just went one way for 20 minutes and turned around. It felt so good to get out of the house and move!! I also did some crunches on my exercise ball and about 10 minutes of my Pilates video. That’s all I could muster for the day, but it was so good to be active again!!

I think I’m going to start keeping track of my food intake and see if that helps. I know it will, but sometimes I feel trapped if I have to keep a record of every little thing I do. It makes me feel as though I’m a little girl again and my mom is watching me like a hawk again. I had was always reasonably thin, but when I hit puberty, my weight shot up and mom became a drill instructor and less like a mother. When I moved out I had so much freedom and my weight shot up again to 175 at 20, 200 at 24, 233 at 30 and now 250 at 39. Now that I’ve finally “grown up,” I’ve begun to see, though mom did it the wrong way, she meant well.

I am so glad I have the chance to show my kid’s the correct way to control their weight. Since all 3 of them are in modeling and acting, the pressure will no doubt be hard, especially for my daughter who is only 10. She’s already said she no longer wants to wear her bikini since she is getting fat!! There is not once of fat on that child! She just hit 60 pounds!! My 4 year old son is finally over 35 pounds. Now my 14 year old son gives me pause. He’s 5′6″ and 160 pounds. I feed him healthly choices, but several of his friends eat fried foods and drink soda, neither of which come into our house. He is getting a bit of a tummy. It hasn’t hurt his modeling career yet, but it will soon if he doesn’t do something soon. Being a teenager, he hates to do “exercise,” yet he rides his bike all over town with his buddies and plays with his airsoft gun on weekends. I try to tell him the girls will notice him more if he starts to tone and shape up. He like to look at girls, but still acts silly around them.

Anyway, enough of the kids. What I have to do today:

1. Walk - treadmill since it’s raining and getting colder as the days goes on - at least 30 minutes

2. Ball exercises - just going to do my usual 10 sets of 20 crunches (yep, 200 crunches)

3. Bowflex - do a full workout from the manual with extra leg and ab work- @ 45 minutes

That should be enough for the day and I need to get started since it’s noon!!

Hugs to all my buddies!!!!1

It’a 455 am and I awakened like it was 7am and time to get up for my day! But the good thing is my throat is finally feeling better. It doesn’t feel like an ice pick is being shoved down it. I managed to do some exercise yesterday. I worked on my ball. I did fewer reps than normal, but I did the entire workout in the manual. I felt really proud of myself and it felt good to exercise again!! I don’t think I’m going to jump back into my routine until another day or two, but a little workout won’t hurt. When the weather getting cooler, I don’t need to be breathing in the morning air yet. I may ease back into walking on the treadmill. Today I think I will venture onto the Bowflex and do a 20minute workout that is in the book.

I am nervous about eating since I lost 2 pounds. I know they are a result of being sick and being unable to eat much, but I have to give my body fuel. Also I know that when I start working out again I will continue dropping pounds. I have a problem with emotional eating and sometimes I get scared and starve or eat too much when I get overwhelmed. That’s why being sick has thrown such a kink in my plan. I want to drop 100 pounds before my 40th B-Day next October and being sick is not the way to drop the weight!! Now I am feeling anxious and need to get my thoughts together. I will add more later and try to put feeling into words. This journal has really helped me the past few days. I know the thougts seem scattered, but it really helps to put them out in the open not inside for me to fret over. Later friends!!

Got a new scale yesterday. This morning, 253.2! I didn’t realize how much weight I put on in the last 15 years! I have been happily married for that long and guess I didn’t care since he loved me the way I was. When we maried I was 175, but in good shape since I worked out daily. I just ate enough not to drop any weight. Then I was happy and stopped exercising when our oldest arrived (’95) 3 weeks after our first anniversary. I never looked back! Then two more kids in ‘99 and ‘05 and I should have known something was wrong when other’s didn’t even know I was pregnant!! I thought I was aglow with pregnancy, and I was, but not to other’s!!!

Now the kid’s are involved in modeling and acting, and I stand out like a sore thumb when I’m with them. I’m not the only overweight mom, but I’m the biggest!

I can’t believe I’m turning 40 next October and I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been! Sometimes I feel as though my laife has been wasted until I see my kids, and then I know I have a lot to love for!!

I only eaten 2 plain biscuits today since I have a bladder infection and don’t feel well. I should have done my exercise plan, but moving around hurts and right now I’m saving movement for going to the bathroom which hurts likes nobodies business. I feel like crying and screaming evertime and wait until I absolutely have to go!

What I would have done today:

Walk/jog - (I do 2 miles in about 50 minutes) - I alternate walking and jogging in 30 second intervals, or at least I try!

Exercise Ball - 10 sets of 20 reps - 

Bowflex - I do one of the workouts in the book that came with it for weightloss

 I do these workout throught the day. There is no way I could do them all at one time. At least no yet!!

 KEEP IT UP GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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